and yes, as usual, i miss you. everything was just my wishful thinking. i'm such a fool, i knew you not for long and i fell for you, like seriously? i shouldnt have told you my feelings because it makes you even harder to say no to me and you know you wouldnt like me anyway.. this feeling is like how my feelings towards john, maybe even deeper i guess? everytime when i see an aeroplane, i'll make a wish, the same wish over and over again, all i wanted was just to see you once. they ask me not to like you too much ? but i guess, i cant. feelings are hard to avoid. no feelings equal to no feelings. i cant force you, i just want you to be happy. :>